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some strange time around here...
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Oct 20, 2009 1:56 pm
Mood: energetic,
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Hey, people!
How is it going?)) Hope you`re all doing fine! And my things are going the same way!
Nothing special happened. No good new news. Nothing to complain)))
Does depression press me or put down? Nope) And even bad news did not make so bad impression to me! Well, yesterday went to the University and took away my documents, cause have already entered another one)) Things are changing quickly  And when I filled in some papers, I asked a woman, if I`ll get the prepaid money back. The answer was negative) For the first 30 seconds I was upset... But couple of minutes later I thought :" Screw it! Sh*t happens!" And just gone. Today during the job I checked my e-mail, where found a message from the bank. Notice letter))) Thay noticed me, that I have to pay the intrest. Well, actually sum was not big, but still... I have no money to cover `em)) What to do? I don`t know, time shows! In the evening met with my colleague from ex-work. Well, he said that now, he`s at the same situation like me))) Everything`s bad, but life keeps kicking. And all these horrible news were disturbing me all the day, and in the end I thought: " What the h***ll!? It won't last for ever! What should I do? Take a revolver and make a bang?)))) Everything' cool! Life's a flower we, are the seeds!" And when came home, have done all the excercises that were given in Maths! Yeap, now, I feel satisfied)))
Oh by the way! When just came here(to KFF) to check my page, suddenly remembered about friends, that made here: Ishi, Jisan and all others. FRIENDS, IF YOU READ THIS MESSAGE, PLEASE DON`T THINK I FORGOT ABOUT YOU, just sometimes don`t even have a time to check my e-mail! Hope, that soon we`ll chat again!!!
Well, it`s time to go to bed. Tomorrow will be saturated day!
Stay cool people! Keep you`re self and feel happyб because you DESERVE IT!!!
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Actually got it...)))
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Oct 13, 2009 12:18 pm
Mood: high,
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Well, 3 months of hard studying are almost over and now moving to a practise in a quick tempo)) Will get paid next month. Feel that my mood has risen recently! And though I`m still lonely I don`t wanna build kinda relationships. But want to get higher and wanna gain skills and experience at sea brokerage on the given job! It`s a way to earn money and to start making a career. Who knows, maybe several years later I`ll become a good broker 
Wooou, feel that the life gets to its normal position!=) And the last time I talk to my mom and sis more then did it some time ago))
People, stay cool and keep yourself! Patience - is the onliest thing, that keeps nerves)
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Already... but not yet...
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Sep 21, 2009 2:23 pm
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It`s been a while, I haven`t posted here (on KFF) anything... Things, job, education and so on...
What`s new? Almost nothing... The same routine. 6 a.m. bell rings, at 7 already at work, at 2 p.m. on another work(still studying). Do not visit University at all. In october will go to the sea. Will be arriving there for about one month, maybe more.
Actually, I`m lost. Lost somewhere inside of me. Don`t know what I really want from this life. For the last time I understood, that realtionship between me and dad, are stretched! He still wants me to study how to live, and some time after told me, that I must make decisions by myself... How can I do it, when I`m under control??? Everytime, when I get some news at work, when we meet with dad, he asks my about a thing... That`s easy to understand, cause everywhere that I go, he has neighbours and friends. Fu*k!!! He even knows, how much money did I earn thia or that month! Some pretty sh*tty stressful situation... I thought hundred times about living the country, and build my own life. When I hear from dad: "You're already grownup, I wanna see you makin' moves by your own!" And when I start to do something, he appears and as usual... Studying me how to live...
Tired of that Sh******... Can't take it anymore... Wanna find myself...
A week ago went to do some psychological tests.. Psychologist will call me back this week, to make conclusion about results... I'm not nerves. just wanna tell her something, that scratches my soul and my inside world. And it's a pity, that even psychologist isn't a human, I could talk to like a person that is similar to me for 20% )))
But anyway, life goes on! We have to thank God, that he gifted us another one day of life! We have to share each other! Must not forget to tell our relatives and nearest that we LOVE 'em, when leavin a house, or when just calling them.
It will be better soon, I believe!
Take care people! Don't let small things to put you down!
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UNCLEEEEEEEE!!!:)
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Aug 29, 2009 4:51 am
Mood: happy,
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Once again I`ve become uncle!!!
WOHOOOOOOOOOO
Feel myself happy! News such as these, yesterday rised my mood!!!
Greetings to my sister!
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Summer ends...
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Aug 23, 2009 12:03 pm
Mood: calm,
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It`s cold outside in the evenings. Wind`s blowing more stronger and became more colder... Grass and leaves are still green. Temperature slowly falls down. 8 days more and it`s September.
Can`t say that this Summer was great or awesome. It was kind of last one. Last Summer I`ve spent in the army)) What about this one? Sunbathed for several times, worked, studied, only 2 times swam in the Baltic Sea, had no money to travel and visit some hot country... Let us say, had no Summer this year, just like last time. But feeling my self peaceful. Cause I understand, that it`s life, and I haven`t reached some level, that could make me proud of myself! Must screw with all of my parts of body, to become a human, that can feel self-contained! Parents wanna see me as a man, that can provide himself independently! I know that, and trying to do my best.
Father says, that he wants me to do things without his help, like he did. I understand that. But when I`m trying to make some moves, suddenly he appears, and tells me that I`m doing all wrong. He tries to study me how to live, tells me what should I do, and what shouldn`t. He always does it))) I don`t complain or feel my self ofended, I know that he is worried about me. But next time when he says: " You must make moves without my help, nobody helped me when I was young!" I know, that in the end he starts studin' me the life.))) Let it be that way, I just don't wanna see him passing through my mistakes))
Love my family! And thank them that they support me in a hard minute!
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Sad Saturday...
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Aug 4, 2009 6:44 am
Mood: (((,
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Saturday. About 4 p.m. Me and one of mine friends were sitting in the park. Talked, laughed. Mood was perfect! WHen suddenly called my sister...
She said: " Yura, bad news... Last night near the club was a conflict between two companies of guys. Two of them were cut, by knife... One is dead... We knew him... It`s Yura L." Sister cried when told me that. I was shocked, couldn`t believe it.
Can`t believe it... Yura, rest in peace, bro!
People, keep yourself.
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so naaaaaive:D
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Jul 26, 2009 4:23 am
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Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*n!!!)))))))))))
I`m so naive, I can`t believe my self!))) Feel myself so stupid...
She loves another one And I`m dissmissed, and have been cheated))) Fu*k me!))))
Life is so funny thing!!!
Taht`ll be a lesson for the rest of my life!!! And since that day, it`ll be really hard to trust my passion in the future)))
Peace people! DO NOT EVER CHEAT ON EACH OTHER!!!
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no treatment against it...
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Jul 21, 2009 12:41 pm
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Hi, everyone!
Yeap, long time not seen. Stirring life? For sure! Training in a new place of work. Thx, to my dad, that helped me in finding of new job. Two months more and will get started working. Every day the same routine: 5.45 a.m. rings the bell, at seven already doing the job. At 1 p.m. finishing part-time job, moving to a new job to study. At 7 in the evening tired, hungry get home))) But it`s okay, I can handle this.
I should feel lucky myself, cause soon I`ll do a work, that is well paid...But... Life doesn`t seem to be so bright. All the problems are in LOVE. And unfortunately it`s a lamblike love. Sh*t, can`t believe, that it hasn`t let me go still. She doesn`t love already since the moment she told me that. And all the senses that have lived in me that day, are still living in my heart...in my soul... 9 months have already passed, but I can`t still stop thinking about her. Can`t get her out of my mind. Last two months we met with her periodically. It could be better, if I didn`t met with her. My fault. A week ago, I understood, that it`s better to me, if we won`t see each other. She agreed. Of course, because she had no feelings to me... Can`t forget her... Always thinking about her... Every new thought is at list somehow connected with her. And I can`t do nothing with myself. Such long time has passed since we broke up, but even TIME can`t treat those wounds... And I don`t wanna get a new girlfriend. I don`t visit clubs, I don`t wanna drink, don`t wanna see comedies, don`t even want to speak to anyone. F********ck!!! DON`T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!
No treatment against it...
People, LOVE be LOVED!!! Cause LOVE is the best thing in the world, that hasn`t been discovered by scientist, and has no formulary explanation, and brings you happiness and warmth!!!
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fresh RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICE!!!
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Jun 15, 2009 6:31 am
Mood: high,
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Good day, people! Good day country! Good day Monday!!!
Yesterday was a hard party at my friends place, he just called me and asked what am I planning to do. I answered, that NOTHING, he said that would be cool if I came to pass couple of beers. Well, not a problem. 200 meters to the next house, or 132 footsteps))) Beer, then another, then another, then another, then... 2 a.m. in the morning, me moving back home, making weird zig-zags)))) At 9:34 a.m. phone call. Recieved. It was a bro from the place that I work, said that got lots of job to do. Got it. Hangover. Bus. Work. 2 hours passed quickly, and then... My stomach said that he was hungry. I remembered, that mom cooked tasty cottlets... But what cottlets are good without a rice??? I so looooving fresh rice. Russian cottlets and fresh Korean rice PPPPPPP mmmmmmm..... And while the rice`s cooking, I`m writing a post here. Soon I`ll eat it! Gonna find chop-sticks, cause 5 minutes after it`ll be cooked!!!
Be positive people! Eat rice!
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Summer? Or...?
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Jun 13, 2009 3:26 am
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Yeap, it`s June, 13th. My friend has a Birthday today. Weekend...
But looking outside, it seems to be like Autumn. Fog, wind, not so warm...Mood is below level. Even don`t wanna go for a walk, cause it`s so nasty outside.
Well, but life still moving and it gonna move. Tomorrow will be better...we`ll see.
All the best to you people, don`t let some small things put you down!
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