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I have renamed my blog as PILLS.This is because ' PILLS ' or the medication that i have been taking have a ' central role ' to play in my life.They 'control ' my behaviour and they decide my happiness / success / failure in love / relation / job almost every aspect of life.I can also lead a normal life if my medication works effectively which can otherwise be a hell for sure.I have reconciled to the fact that my life is 'Uncertain' as there is no firm cure for my illness and it is not always necessary that the medication works effectively and the disorder resurfaces.

The choice of my id 'Brainteaser' is in itself in relation to my illness and disorder.

Lately i have chosen to open up share my innermost secrets.

I am lucky to have such people here with whom i am sharing the darkest secrets of my life.I hope they will understand and if possible avoid ignoring me.

Noone's

bt
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SHORT EMERGENCY LEAVE ! Oct 30, 2007 11:09 pm
Mood: depressed, 1950 Views
I am leaving seoul for India on 2nd Nov 07.Backhome my father is seriously ill.My mother advised me to come ASAP as this could be the last opportunity for a good father and bad son 2 see each other.

I dont know what will happen there.I may have to stay there longer for specialised and personal care to my father.This means a major financial loss 2 me but then he is my father and i have no other option as i am the only son backhome.Of all members in my family i have always had maximum attachment and liking for my father.For long there had been a love-hate relation between me and my father but lately as my father started getting old and dependent all my hatred disappeared and was replaced by my love and care for him.

I need good wishes from all of you espacially from the kindergarden lollypop friends who hate me and who complain to KFF 2 get me banned.
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Something Personal Oct 29, 2007 5:20 pm
Mood: depressed, 1201 Views

My mother called me yesterday and she told me that my father backhome in India was seriously ill.She told me that i should not miss the last chance to see my father and he might also be expecting to see me.

My father has been suffering from tubercloasis for quite some time now.He has become very weak and cant even resist the medication for treatment.

I work here in Seoul and backhome in India my mother and my younger sister have been looking after my father.

I was in a night club in Seoul with my colleagues when all of a sudden i got this call from my mother.

My heart is feeling heavy.Cant really express how it feels to get this kind of call from home that this could be last opportunity for u and ur father 2 see each other.Helplessness about the possibility of losing the beloved one forever.

My father was a lower level govt employee.He is a very simple , nice and a traditional person.In my whole family i have been attached the most 2 my father only.And he has been the one who has always been there for me even when my wife and my mother were not with me.

I shall be leaving for India in a few days from now and i also plan to worship to god for him.I can at least pray for a painless or a lesser painful ..............my father.
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A haunting!>:) Oct 24, 2007 8:46 am
Mood: scared, 1402 Views
I am in my home alone as ever.I am watching the programme ' a haunting ' on discovery channel.I am too scared.I wanna go to bathroom but........hehee.At my home in India when i would be scared my 10 yrs old daughter would offer to accompany me to the bathroom at night "Papa dont be scared.I will accompany u to the bathroom'.Miss her as ever.I think i better call my daughter now.

I like horror movies etc but i am scared 2.hehehe
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CAN LOVE BE UNCONDITIONAL?? Oct 17, 2007 1:24 am
Mood: thoughtful, 1666 Views

Love is expressed in the form of different human relationships.Love between a husband and a wife , a son and a father /mother , love between friends and so on.

I strongly believe that love in these various relationships is sustained by some basic preconditions.If these preconditions are not fulfilled love disappears and takes the form of hatred.

My wife loves me on the precondition that i earn money and maintain the requirements and comforts of my family .I love my wife on the precondition that she allows me to have physical relationship with her and she remains faithful to me.My parents love me on the precondition that i support them financially and look after them in their old age.

Just suppose a situation which renders me unable to be able to fulfill above preconditions.Say due to a prolonged unemployment or an incurable illness beyond my control.Will my wife , my parents etc still continue to love me?Or the relationship will turn sour and result in a humiliating life for me?

Likewise love in any relationship is sustained by some basic preconditions.This means that love is always conditional.It can never be unconditional.

What is your opinion about this?

Can love be unconditional?
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Todays Menu in my Seoul Apartment Oct 12, 2007 8:55 pm
Mood: beautiful, 1332 Views

Its weekend and i cook my favourite Indian dishes on the weekend.

Todays Menu :-

1) Palak Paneer ( Indian Cheese + Spaniach Curry)
2) Rajmah ( Red beans currry in red chilli spice)
3) Aalu ka Parantha ( Kind of Indian Bread stuffed with mashed boiled spicy potatoes)

Yummy

People who love Indian Food can leave me a messge i can accomodate upto 2 heads on first come first serve basis.Chicks have the preference
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My daughter and her teddy bear. Oct 12, 2007 7:33 pm
Mood: cheerful, 1335 Views

My daughter is 10 yrs old now.I remember that she was roughly 3 or 4 years old then.She had a teddy bear whom she would love and look after just like a mother.She would feed it , take it to the toilet etc everything.At night she would sleep with the teddy by her side.

One day i casually lied down by her side and i also started hugging , kissing and loving this teddy the same way as she used to do.

She immediately snatched the teddy from me.The looks of her face ( i just can explain in words) were worth watching.She started slapping and kicking the teddy.She even started throwing it around from one corner to another.

Basically childeren too are possesive about their parents love and she did not want to share our love for her with anyone even her dear teddy.

Even now i have to be careful when she is with her cousins who are of the same age.I have to take care not to love them more than her or attach too much importance to them ; else she feels it and i can as a parent see it so obviously on her face.She feels insecure and she feels bad about it.Sometimes she even complains about it.Really childeren are soo innocent.
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The Right ( Ideal ) Age For Marriage Oct 10, 2007 9:26 pm
Mood: thoughtful, 1439 Views

Men and women , in my view must marry at the time when they are in the peak of their youth.They have physical and biological needs at this age and i feel crushing these needs is not appropriate.Marrying at a time when man and woman are in the peak of their youth has its own charms which is missed by people who marry too late.And trust me , if feel these people really dont know what they have missed.

Another disadvantage is that if u do not marry at right age then your responsibilities towards ur childeren etc are still incomplete even though you may have already retired and passed the productive period of your life.

People should marry at a stage that all their responsibilities towards their childeren are completed before they retire ie before their productive age ( say 58 years ) is completed.

Marrying too late is not medically appropriate as the offsprings of such parents have high risks of bearing babies with dreadly incurable psychological and mental disorders like mental retardation , schhizopherenia and the like.
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When i felt she loved me the most ? Oct 10, 2007 7:45 pm
Mood: beautiful, 1254 Views

My wife is a very simple and a peaceloving lady.I enjoy 'Brain-teasing' and fighting with my wife.I simply wanna have some fun by delibrately teasing her.One day i teased her too much.I made jokes and full mimickery etc over her parents , brother , sisters etc.She is 2 simple and did not have the wits to counter my attack the same way.I knew well that she cant tolerate anything against her parents espacially.

She became too angry.So she got up and she beat me up like anything.Hahahaaha!In the process as i tried to defend myself my fist struck against the glass windowpane on my back and it started bleeding profusely.All of a sudden she clenched me tight in her arms - against her chest; saying sorry repeatedly and started kissing me allover repeatedly.I think this was the moment i felt my wife's love to the maximum.

Thereafter also i tried to provoke her to repeat this kind of thing but couldn't succeed again.
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How to find love and affection in Korea ? Oct 7, 2007 4:52 pm
Mood: guilty, 1285 Views

I am a forced bachelor.I work in Seoul-korea.I am very lonely and i desperately desire for love & affection here.My desire for love increases even the more when i see love and affection scenes in korean movies / channels.I can't understand korean language but i surely can feel the love of a korean man and woman on screen.I like it sooo much.Sex is secondary to my requirement.I am married since 12 years and so i am surely not a sex despot.I consider physical love just as a means of expression of emotional love and affection.

But i am thinking that in this materialistic world it may be very difficult for a forced bachelor to find love here in Korea.Love is a basic requirement of every human being / even animals and it must be very difficult to stay without being loved.

What is your view about this? Can u help plz?

Regards

SHEEN / BT
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MY DAUGHTERS BIRTHDAY PARTY IN SEOUL Oct 3, 2007 7:48 pm
Mood: cheerful, 1278 Views

Last week we celebrated our daughters 10th birthday.My family celebrated it back-home in India.I sent my daughter a birthday dress , a casio music synthasizer , a crossword puzzle game , a childrens doctor set for her birthday gifts.She was soo excited with these gifts that she could not see anything beyond these gifts in this world.

Since i am alone here in Seoul I celebrated it here by inviting my Indian and Korean colleagues over a weekend Party.

Friday evening itself , despite heavy rains , i went to the foreign food mart in Itaewon ; the only shop in Seoul where Indian food stuffs are available.On Saturday i got up very early in the morning.I am a good Indian Cook myself.I prepared all the dishes on the menu myself.

At 5:30 pm all the Indian and Korean Guests had arrived to my apartment.Indian Snacks 'Cheese Pakora' was served with drinks first.There is no hard indian cheese available in market here so i make fresh cheese from milk in my room myself.Drinks esp Korean wine 'Soju' accompanied the snacks.This was followed by fried Indian Rohu Fish- my favourite.Peanuts and other packed Indian Snacks were also served.This was followed by dinner ; special Indian Basmati - thin rice with fish curry , chicken curry and Cheese curry.
Salads and 'Curd Raita' accompanied the dinner menu.I have to make curd also myself in my apartment due to scarce availability here.Indian Dessert 'Spaecial Rasagulla' was served as a sweet dish.
Finally special himalayan tea " Mughal tea" was served to the invitees.This mughal tea was brought to kashmir by mughal invaders believed to be from Persia.
My Korean colleagues also liked the dishes very much and one of them fell sick later due to overeating.
Finally i accompanied my guests to the gate to see them off and they in turn thanked me for the invitation.
I have taken some pics of this Party to be kept with me as a sweet & memorable reference of my stay in this wonderful Korea.
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