how do you know something is real? i feel like i've grown so much personally the last couple of months. i'm trying to rebuild my relationship with my mother. trying to be a great daughter. my mother struggled so much, i want to be there for her. even though she says things to hurt me, i want to be there for her.
a girl i befriended in my accounting class took me out to lunch today. OMG!!! SO GOOD.
the restaurant is called Newport Seafood in San Gabriel...2 of us ordered a 4 pound crab and lobster. it was scrumptous. (i don't think i spelled that correctly). it's the food coma.
of course we had food left over and came home to drop it off in the frig, too expensive and too tasty to leave in the car for another 5 hours. so yes...i'm playing hooky from my marketing class but...
my folks are gonna enjoy the food i just brought home...i know it's left overs but damn...
i've been a broken soul lately. not because of the petty relationship or friendship i've recently developed but my ten year friendship with someone whom i thought was close to me.
now i need to begin to let it go as i have slowly started to realize that she is always going to chose the man in her life rather than a friend who's stuck by her.
i bid farewell to her and her future life with her fiance~. it hurts but it's always been that way...i guess i never knew that it was going to hurt this much.
i spent the whole morning with my folks. it was the first time ever that we didn't get on each other's nerves.
we started the day on a sad note. my dog, my unconditional loving dog, Roxy was put to sleep this morning. as a family, we were preparing for 2 weeks to let her go.
she had been sick and developed a tumor for about a year but due her age, the vet said to let her live for it was not causing any pain. the tumor grew in the year to a size of a grapefruit.
it started to make her limp, but was not in any pain. she still ate normally but she wasn't able to jump up and play like normal.
after crying for about a week...today i was sad and numb. i am glad that she is not suffering anymore.