The CALM That is Today.  

2/8/2009 7:00 pm

I can say for now that I usually hold a very laid-back attitude toward life. But on today, I seemed to have ~ZOOMED~ into crisis mode and morph out of my unique sense of complacency. One of my relatives seems to have an emergency; yet, I couldn't seem to be able to be my usual "rock of strength" for him. I couldn't believe that I literally told him to "Take a number." I guess this is to say that I need time for ME. Time to be a bit selfish even, and take the time to simply smell the roses. I deserve as much.... Life, thus, as I know it, is full of renewed zest. Motto thereof: "To thine own self be true". (Still keeping in mind, though, that I am a bit more ....emotionally volatile than usual. Hmmm...) Hopefully, Valentine's Day will find me well...lol...and in receipt of that 'special gift' from the one who bear with me in loving respect, despite my imperfections. "Calm" was ultimately the watchword in my emotional life today. Nothing could have shattered the feeling of calm that enveloped me today. Today's climate was one of harmony and confidence, exquisitely suited to working in a team. Today... I stood... tall and contented...on mountaintops. Today... the climate was one of harmony and confidence, exquisitely suited to working for me to provide creativity, know-how and skill. For my spectacular specimen of a spouse, there seemed a loving, romantic, dreamy feeling on today that I let myself go in taking advantage of... indulging completely. I've a special someone in my life of whom I respect and appreciate fully, and this was the perfect day to share these feelings with him this morning. ...seriously planning a romantic candlelight dinner at home tonight, just the two of us...no kids involved. No pressure... on my part to cook any elaborate meal -- I'll just pick up some take out and serve it up on the good china, fine crystal stemware, and ...a bottle of choice bubbly to boot! With that in mind, I tend to keep my focus on the two of US... as one. "Only a few things are really important." -- Marie Dressler