In my head...  

2/23/2008 10:35 pm	I've sat on my behind today, not all day, but a lot of it. I'm thinking, thinking and thinking... In fact, most of my day was consumed by thoughts. I really want to move on, i've had enough of my situation. I hate things as they are now. It's not a question if things will change but, how i will make them change. Or will i just sit here and complain... (as i did last year). I've done quite changes but i don't see them to measure up my expectations. I should want more out of life but looking around i cannot see all that many choices. I have to catch the "right train" to eventually getting around to something nice in my life. there are a lot things i'm thankful for and many wonderful, valuable people. it had help if i had a woman in my life but that's non-existent. I suppose at the end of all this, i just have to endure me, whoever i am. The older i get, the more i realise that i need to appreciate -and not feeling content- any progression, even the slightless, as beneficial for me. Tomorrow is another day... Have a beautiful day, Frenchguy. Song of the day :THE SOULSAVERS "Revival"
coucou 2/24/2008 9:30 am	I can't breathe when I feel that I'm going to be crazy because I can't move things as I want to..."Right now".."Right now".. but I can't make it. I hesitate, I get scared, and also I avoid..but I know and believe that this status is necessary to deciding things for the good. When I forced myself to change, I couldn't make good decision. All was just messed up. So I don't do it anymore and I just let thing happening as what it is. and I react for what is best for me. maybe that's the different part I get used to since I am being sort of "old" in my brain. I can't say whether it's good thing...I wish I can just GO FOR IT!.....But I can't do it. Through all the hesitating and concerning "What's the right things for EVERYONE",...Well, I couldn't find an answer. Because it wasn't what I want to. I wanted to find an answer for myself. But what's good thing for me? I still don't find an answer. Chaning myself is the most hard thing in this world I think... and yeah..I do appreciate all things around me no matter what and..yes, It is the only thing I could feel that I'm moving toward... Darn...You made me rambling here...lol I dunno what I'm saying here but it just came out. You too have a beautiful day and keep the courage in you as a great force. Just believe it.
frenchguy38 799 posts  2/25/2008 12:07 am	Hello Coucou, Well, your "rambling" is quite a good complement about my thoughts lol. And yes, changing ourself is a challenge. I'm sure you know the dicton "Chasser le naturel, il revient au galop". But, i'm not sure that changing myself is the solution. Maybe i should learn more about myself... Thx for your encouragement Beautiful day to you.