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5/20/2008 12:38 pm |
It was a gruelling road that stretched before me every day. The destination was always identical but the story of getting there was different each day. I wonder if it was worth it. Paying the bills, keeping a roof over my head... yep... i had to make this trip over and over but nothing happened, it has stop actually. If i wasn't happy about this daily drive, at least it gave me food. But, today, i gave up. So many cars on the f@#$ing road. We're all in a rush to go nowhere. I can't beat anymore those cars, being really early make no sense... you might see less of them but the fatigue sets in and everything is catching up in an underhand way. I've accepted it for a while, it was hurting less that way. I've seen often flowers and crosses laid out by a tree on some exit ramp. Someone must have hit the wall and died. I wonder how many other people have died travelling this road and i know i will not be one of them. Still, would anyone put a memorial for me if i did? It's getting morose. I have to shift my attention. More fighting worldwide, people dying from natural catastrophe, people losing their home. (Honestly, i don't care.why should I ). People lie to themselves to grab a hold of that elusive American Dream. They're here fighting for that so "called" dream. Have any of them found it? And if they did, are they happy? Was it everything they thought it would be? The look on some faces begs to question. I have not interest in money, I need happiness. I hate how we jump through hoops for money but we have too. I had the feeling being a hamster running in a caged wheel. Many of us can't stop running and even can't get away... Being happy, hum... maybe happy on the outside (ahhh ! appearences) but what's going on inside? Almost there, i have waited so much for better but it hasn't happened yet. And will never. Of course, there is always something better than what you have but there is always something worse. Better, yes, but i don't believe anymore. I really don't know what will happened those next days... but i'm sure of one thing. I stopped travelling this f#$%ing road... Have A Beautiful Day. Arnaud. Song of the day: SHOCKING PINKS "End of the World" |
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5/20/2008 3:48 pm |
FG, what are you saying?
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5/20/2008 9:03 pm |
Arno~ Obviously, it hasn't been a good day for you. I wondered where you were this evening and what you were doing. Don't worry about the road ending. I encourage veering off course now and then. Make a right instead of the left, but keep driving hard! When you're tired, lean on me. Ayyyy...you know I'm here for you!
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5/20/2008 9:54 pm |
To KFF: what should i do to make visible this post on the main blog page ??????????????????????????? Even posting a blog is mission impossible for me... LOL
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5/20/2008 10:31 pm |
FG, I saw this post early in the afternoon on the main page, then it disappeared. Now it s back. That actually is far from my concern. Are you all right my friend? You are the pillar of KFF. It s not reassuring to see you seemingly depressed like this.... Let s talk.
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5/21/2008 3:44 pm |
Time passed by like flipping the pages of a book I paused everything and gave my life another look there were plenty of ups and downs i took my share of smiles and frowns got the cuts, bruises and broken bones had my laughter, cries and moans so many moments thought to be the end too many wounds, hard to mend shiny days and dark nights some choices were wrong others were right i know I'm still young and not wise enough to sit here and talk about this stuff but this life, sometimes clear but in moments obscure be strong and have faith, so there's nothing you can't endure
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5/21/2008 4:55 pm |
Arno ~ call me. If not, at least email me. I'm going to hold my breath until I hear from you!
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5/21/2008 6:19 pm |
Hey French, I hope you are well.... Wow, your blogg reads like Scripture: Ecclesiastes 2:11-- Thus I considered all my activities which my hands had done and the labor which I had exerted, and behold all was vanity and striving after wind and there was no profit under the sun. Ecclesiastes 2:17-- So I hated life, for the work which had been done under the sun was grievous to me; because everything is futility and striving after wind. Ecclesiastes 4:4-- I have seen that every labor and every skill which is done is the result of rivalry between a man and his neighbor. This too is vanity and striving after wind. Ecclesiastes 6:9-- What the eyes see is better than what the soul desires. This too is futility and a striving after wind. My two favorite commentaries on your 'road rage', french, are: (1) Jamieson-Fausset-Brown Bible Commentary 11. But all these I felt were only "vanity," and of "no profit" as to the chief good. "Wisdom" (worldly common sense, sagacity), which still "remained with me" (Ec 2:9), showed me ...that these could not give solid happiness. (2) Matthew Henry's Concise Commentary 2:1-11 Solomon soon found mirth and pleasure to be vanity. What does noisy, flashy mirth towards making a man happy? The manifold devices of men's hearts, to get satisfaction from the world, and their changing from one thing to another, are like the restlessness of a man in a fever. Perceiving it was folly to give himself to wine, he next tried the costly amusements of princes. The poor, when they read such a description, are ready to feel discontent. But the remedy against all such feelings is in the estimate of it all by the owner himself. All was vanity and vexation of spirit: and the same things would yield the same result to us, as to Solomon. Having food and raiment, let us therewith be content. His wisdom remained with him; a strong understanding, with great human knowledge. But every earthly pleasure, when unconnected with better blessings, leaves the mind as eager and unsatisfied as before. Happiness arises not from the situation in which we are placed. It is only through Jesus Christ that final blessedness can be attained. French, Please take heart and understand that we are all concerned about your positive welfare. indeed, there are many fast cars on the road, the destination always identical, in the routine we call'ther rat race';but there are time when one must pull to the side and gain a perspective. Moreover, meditating on what it is that is wrong in life can more than certainly cause usto do the wrong thing. this is my concern for you...that you not do the 'wrong thing' in pondering what is right for you. French, please know that this world is not perfect, thus things do not go the way that we would always want them to go. We are, at best, ALL born into imperfection and we inherit, not usually that illusive 'American Dream', but the disabilities of existence in this present world: aging, sickness,and, as is now experiences as example in Myrmar and China...painful unnecessary death. even the many flowers and crosses laid out by trees on the street and on exit ramps, are usu. not intentional but mistakes done by the unintended. SO PLEASE...don't let the imperfections of today dictate your bright future and seperate you from the love of God and and those who enjoy YOU daily. GET UP. BRUSH OFF THE DIRT. AND STAND...having done all you can to stand...with God and loving friends as support. we are here for you, friend...(smiling here...) Oh yes, ...and the road Yeah. stop travelling it, hmm? No good, no good.... Also know that mankind's history has been filled to the brim with suffering, sorrow, sickness and even death. this is not to say that wicked intentions originate entirely with humanity. far from it. Much Love and Respect, Arnaud. Noni  "Only a few things are really important." -- Marie Dressler
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5/21/2008 6:27 pm |
GET UP. BRUSH OFF THE DIRT. AND STAND...AGAIN, My KFF FRIEND. You can do this thing...  "Only a few things are really important." -- Marie Dressler
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5/21/2008 7:31 pm |
French , we are here for you !!!!!!!! I have felt that way many times. KORN
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5/21/2008 9:05 pm |
FG.... it s 9 PM Wednesday. We are all concerned. Please put up a post.
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5/22/2008 6:09 am |
 Frenchy I get this way too... Don't Give Up!!!!
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5/22/2008 8:34 am |
French...waiting.... Don't make me call in an 'California Amber Alert' on you, ok? Mommy Noni is worried about you, Ok? Winetka, California, Hmm? Don't make me come down there...check on YOU...  AwOL? your much to refined for this....  "Only a few things are really important." -- Marie Dressler
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5/22/2008 1:47 pm |
FYI to everyone who has shown concern and support for our dear Frenchy: Finally got an email stating what I knew he would say "No worries." I know he would never ask for help, but I also know that he would greatly appreciate any help received. Since I'm not able to pass out his contact info, please feel free to email him via KFF. This way, he has the option to respond or share.
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5/23/2008 7:50 pm |
Thanks all for your concerns. It means so much for me (far more than you could imagine). I'm not the type of person who complain at the first mishap but life has not been easy this last months. Anyway, i have to deal with it but this is the first time where i feel really stuck and without way out. Well, -feel- isn't right at this time.. i'm stuck. Thanks again for your support. Beautiful day to all.
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5/24/2008 7:33 am |
There he is! french, can you elaborate on what the problem is? maybe we all can help in some way to aleviate at least some of the crisis you now find yourself in, hmm? YES. We ALL care and, IF you will allow, we are here to help, tht within our ability to do so, alright? Much Love and Respect, NoniJuice4 N.b. Gee, I'm glad to finally hear from YOU..personally.  "Only a few things are really important." -- Marie Dressler
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5/24/2008 1:17 pm |
Arno~ Anytime ... just let me know.
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5/28/2008 10:04 am |
Thanks all for your concerns. It means so much for me (far more than you could imagine). I'm not the type of person who complain at the first mishap but life has not been easy this last months. Anyway, i have to deal with it but this is the first time where i feel really stuck and without way out. Well, -feel- isn't right at this time.. i'm stuck. Thanks again for your support. Beautiful day to all. You'd be surely and dearly missed here, if anything would happen to you. You've contribute much with such honest, thoughtful, inteligent opinion/blogs/postings like Noni-chen (though, not as lengthy as hers).  *hehe* Keep on keepin' on. And when you find yourself in a dark, lone, thorny path, or down any whole hole which seems impossible to get out of, don't worry. For you have concerned (or interested, interesting parties), caring friends and companions who'll come by either by passing or (hearing noises), who'll investigate and offer genuine support in times of adversity or any type of situation you may be enduring. ^_= (Yeah, I know. A smidge long-winded)  Never give up and never compromise your ideals and/or integrity. I hope to see ya in the chat rooms as silliest way as possible.  *hehe*
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5/28/2008 3:44 pm |
Hey Jdi, Thanks for your kind words. Have a beautiful day.
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5/30/2008 9:50 am |
 Friendship.. It's thicker then any bond I know away from family.. You'll be always a part - no matter what. Strange isn't it? I am such type, but you and very tiny of handful of people I've met through blog world, rather they know it or not which isn't important, will be forever. Will be those whom I'll think about time to time and wonder of their well being. So happy to hear you again. You'd not go without a farewell.. or at least 'cya always'  Have beautiful days Mon ami.
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6/2/2008 5:50 pm |
Hello Memo, Sorry to answer so lately.(i didn't saw your comment) Thanks for your comment, you're so sweet. Yes, i fully understand your view about friendship and no, it isn't strange. Sometimes, without knowing a person at the "fullest", you feel affinities who lead to friendship. I'm glad to be on your "list", as you are on mine. Hope to see you soon on KFF -i miss your blogs- As always, hope you and family are fine. Thanks again. Have A Beautiful Day.
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6/2/2008 6:12 pm |
Memo ! i just saw (through Pepe's blog) that you close your account...  Hope everything is fine for you. BEAUTIFUL DAY TO YOU !
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