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even when i was at BF's house (now ex BF), i couldn't sleep. i saw images in my sleep. i do believe in spirits. good ones and bad ones. i know that ex-BF's mom is not doing well, but i've been having dreams in which she visits me. it's freaky now bc i am dreaming that she is slowly dying and she dies. they bury her but then she tries to crawl out. she just tapped me on the shoulder before. but then when she tries to crawl out she is coming towards me. i don't know what that means. i have been having these dreams/nightmares the past two days. i've prayed for it to stop. i've prayed for her recovery and remission. but it haunts me. ex-BF told me that there is a ghost in his room, so i freaked out when i was sleeping in his room when i was there. i think maybe that is the ghost that transcended into my brain. i think that is the spirit that brings about the bad emotions and illness in his family. maybe that is, maybe it's not. but all i know that i have not slept the 11 days i was there. since i've been back from the 15th, i have not slept more than 4 hours a night. the last two days, it's been 2-4 hours. i really don't know what to do...with or without him, i haven't slept. i haven't slept well since she had her surgery. i don't know what to make of it. even though i say that i don't have the "obligation" anymore, i still love him. i still care about his mom's health. i wish at times my heart was cold. just turn it on or off as i wish. i think it's still bleeding...it's been bleeding since this illness of hers has taken over everyone's life. i am afraid to sleep now. |
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10/12/2008 9:28 am |
It is sad to hear what had happen. I just hope that you have good friends around to help you through this. It will take time. Everything takes time, but we are always trying to stop time. Sometimes you don't feel like it, but it is always good to be around friend. They are always there to give you that love that is missing. I hope you get better soon. Stay beautiful...
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10/12/2008 1:17 am |
It is sad to hear what had happen. I just hope that you have good friends around to help you through this. It will take time. Everything takes time, but we are always trying to stop time. Sometimes you don't feel like it, but it is always good to be around friend. They are always there to give you that love that is missing. I hope you get better soon. Stay beautiful...
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10/5/2008 9:50 am |
DB I agree with Hawn, when a person goes thru bad times, thinks about things alot, yes you don't sleep. Stress, and life changes make it even worse. And when you put in that his mom had surgery and maybe you care for her.....it does make your mind pretty scary. Keep the faith, if you really care about her, send her some flowers or a card, and I think that helps.
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10/5/2008 8:24 am |
DB I agree with Hawn, when a person goes thru bad times, thinks about things alot, yes you don't sleep. Stress, and life changes make it even worse. And when you put in that his mom had surgery and maybe you care for her.....it does make your mind pretty scary. Keep the faith, if you really care about her, send her some flowers or a card, and I think that helps.
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10/4/2008 9:35 am |
DB - I've been away from the site for a long time and I come back to read the sad new. I hope everything is going well and you are able to get things back to normal. It is always a hard decision to move on but it is better now than later. If you continued on, you would never be happy. You owe it to yourself to be a happy person. I am not too much into the spiritual thing but if you constantly think about something, when you sleep, it is in your mind. Just like work, when I have a crappy project that gives me stress, I have nightmares about it. Keep positive thoughts and hopefully you will get better rest soon.
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10/3/2008 1:49 pm |
DB - I've been away from the site for a long time and I come back to read the sad new. I hope everything is going well and you are able to get things back to normal. It is always a hard decision to move on but it is better now than later. If you continued on, you would never be happy. You owe it to yourself to be a happy person. I am not too much into the spiritual thing but if you constantly think about something, when you sleep, it is in your mind. Just like work, when I have a crappy project that gives me stress, I have nightmares about it. Keep positive thoughts and hopefully you will get better rest soon.
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10/1/2008 11:40 pm |
WoW! Scarey times! We have ghost in vietnam all over too. from the american war. to many die. many wandering souls i think. wishing you luck and good rest. buncha
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