the straw that broke the horse's back
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i take on alot of things that i should not even take it on. from this last trip with BF, it has been so emotionally draining. i can't even imagine how much stress BF is going thru. hearing from him the last day before i was leaving that his father blames him for the mother's cancer. it hit me on how mean korean parents are to their kids. BF told me that they didn't mind that he brought in alot of money when he was doing some "unsettling" business but eversince he's been trying to live a straight path, he doesn't bring in enough. everyone regrets to a certain point about their past but does anyone deserve to put the blame on one person? i've seen the dysfunction of his family...every family has it's quirks and dysfunctions but to see my BF totally distraught that his father blames him for his mother's condition made me feel helpless and angry at the same time. it's not like his father makes the family life any better. he spends more money on his golf and church activities that more money is going out than coming in...just like my family. his family life isn't great...it sucks. but to put the blame on BF and not blame anyone else...it pissed me off. it's not BF's fault...all of his siblings have contributed. i tried my best to be anything and everything for him and his family. but i guess it wasn't enough. this last trip was literally the straw that broke my back. everyone was blaming me for doing things to make their life a little more pleasant. instead of saying thank you, they yelled at me for doing it. F--K!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i tried. i did my best. my next trip in december will be with XQ and i will be staying at a hotel or hostel. so everyone keep in mind we are thinking of coming the second week of december. we would love to meet with some of you for a quiet dinner or lunch...and for some of you guys...don't worry. i doubt BF has time to come out with XQ and i every night. |
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9/30/2008 10:46 pm |
We are all still here for you! Anyway I feel the same, some parent are just tooo funny, they keep on pull there children down or stoping them from sucess! I guess true success is when u have time and finacially free, and live a freedom life! 
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9/26/2008 7:56 am |
We are all still here for you! Anyway I feel the same, some parent are just tooo funny, they keep on pull there children down or stoping them from sucess! I guess true success is when u have time and finacially free, and live a freedom life!
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