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no matter how much i worked, no matter how much i sweated, i couldn't relieve the stress that BF was feeling. his mother undergoes chemotherapy every Monday... she and i went to the market together yesterday and she was so weak. she even mentioned that she would lose all of her hair in about 2 months. i made light of the situation (bc i actually wanted to break down and cry) and said "i'll give you some of mine, i have enough to give both to my mom and you." she laughed. but i know she tried to remain strong. i simply couldn't do anything to make anyone feel better. despite all the raking, cleaning the floors, laundry every day, no matter what i did, it didn't relieve the stress. i lost like 7 pounds being here though. i guess it's a great way to lose weight. i know that it is selfish but i need to get back home and finish school, interview for firms, and hopefully receive an offer by the end of december. once i receive an offer it will be one less stress for me and my family. i pray to God everyday for BF and his family. i pray for the well-being for my family too. i am just stuck between a rock and a hard place. no matter what, i need to finish school and get into a firm for ME. then i can be less stressed...still stressed but one less, well two less things to worry about. then once i finish, i need to find a house in which to live, and hopefully XQ and i will begin our life in NYC/NJ. but the bottom line is, BF said he has come to the grips that his mom may not live long. i have witnessed that she is very weak, she's lost over 20 pounds since June. i hope for the best but i do, expect the worse. his mom and i got to spend alot of time together and she said she hopes that she lives to see another great thing happen next year. i hope so too...i hope she is there to see BF and i get married. i've packed up my things, i can't wait to see my pup and my parents. back to my reality!!! |
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9/17/2008 8:17 pm |
Hello dangerously beautiful. My aunt is suffering from breasts cancer. I know what its like to have love ones who are suffering from illness. I personally don't know what I can say except, I hope you will be able to struggle safely and get something positive out from this. And I also hope you will be able to pull all your strength just to give your boyfriend's mother enough light. What should I say? I hope your family as well as your boyfriend's family are capable to raise enough strength. i thank you for your kind words, it's just hard bc i am not able to help him.
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9/16/2008 9:20 pm |
You will be missed. NYC needs people like you HUGS HUGS HUGS! Sorry I was MIA this week was everything from fashion week to our opening party to meetings with popstars. IM swamped with content. Next time I will kidnap you and bring you both someplace cool I promise
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9/16/2008 9:18 pm |
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9/16/2008 9:18 pm |
Hello dangerously beautiful. My aunt is suffering from breasts cancer. I know what its like to have love ones who are suffering from illness. I personally don't know what I can say except, I hope you will be able to struggle safely and get something positive out from this. And I also hope you will be able to pull all your strength just to give your boyfriend's mother enough light. What should I say? I hope your family as well as your boyfriend's family are capable to raise enough strength. "If I could lead you into the promised land, i could lead you back out again."
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9/16/2008 9:17 pm |
DB, have you looked into support groups that you can attend in CA and learn a little extra on how to be caring and supportive through these trying times? I don't exactly know what your future MIL is experiencing however, I can tell you there is much more you, your boyfriend and his immediate family can be doing emotionally to help her get through this. Also other elements to consider therefore, I would recommend to you to reach out to cancer society of america or Hospice support groups etc. i will try to look into it so i can understand...this is why i quit nursing...the death and dying portion of healthcare. this is why also it took me two years to fully recover from losing my cousin and grandfather. BF tells me to expect the worst...and not necessarily hope for the best. that is the reality we are facing with his family.
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9/16/2008 6:11 pm |
DB, have you looked into support groups that you can attend in CA and learn a little extra on how to be caring and supportive through these trying times? I don't exactly know what your future MIL is experiencing however, I can tell you there is much more you, your boyfriend and his immediate family can be doing emotionally to help her get through this. Also other elements to consider therefore, I would recommend to you to reach out to cancer society of america or Hospice support groups etc.
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9/15/2008 2:39 pm |
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9/15/2008 9:23 am |
You will be missed. NYC needs people like you HUGS HUGS HUGS! Sorry I was MIA this week was everything from fashion week to our opening party to meetings with popstars. IM swamped with content. Next time I will kidnap you and bring you both someplace cool I promise
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