Dont know how to spell this day  

JiaZhen 2/9/2009 8:04 am Last Read: 2/12/2009 2:45 am	today, is our 15th day/last day of chinese new year celebration day. its also our traditional valentine day. & yes we meet a replacement holiday of an indian festival. although is holiday, i work, meeting, visit a friend, and visit another friend & i have a good friend of 7 having our newyear reunion dinner at a japanese restaurant, we have buffet buffet, hehe i cant eat much at this age hehe from good friend i knew thats my ex will getting marry this wednesday, & my ex mother & father in-law is here. we just few street alway. at first i heard, just i say wow...well finally. than i feel nothing, cant say feel nothing, but not effect my mood, yes a little, cant spell its out finally a goodnew from him. my friend told me actually the girl stay in the apartment after very soon i move-out from its they dont want me feel bad so they didnt told me much, & my ex feel bad to bring along his new girl friend during gathering because he feel bad facing me i just listen & i say i m ok with its, since i stay & life well now. ah...think maybe nextime i should take turn to join the gathering, hehe so he can bring his wife together no i wont escape, i wont just little little feeling with this, i cant deny of this feeling. not happy not sad.....have you face this situation before?
JiaZhen 274 posts  2/12/2009 2:45 am	raihei & tcb thanks ya thanks for yours sharing i very appreciate here feel better to write its out and reading all yours word hehe i feel people arround me alwaY, although we far alway thankyou ya i m ok here jiazhen
TCB9Toxic Ask me for a photo 66 posts  2/10/2009 1:13 am	Jia i still remember me on m ex-partners. It remains always an interest on their lifes. But its their life, i dotn regret for my decisions even i know what mistakes i made or how happend, that these persons are not any more n my life. I see forward. Never back. The past is past, and these persons are belonging to the past. And even they were a better choice as my now choises, it was the right choice to go away from their life. Its always a small bit when i am thinking at them. But i know if i had the chance to be with them again, i would regret it. So looking forwards and making steps to have quality in my life. And even they had betray me, ( they didnt), i wouldnt feel anything now. Keep walking Jia. ( one ex is allready married and her husband took HER last name. I would never do that. I am so lucky...to be far from her.)
Raihei Ask me for a photo 2/9/2009 6:07 pm	I was in a plane 7 years ago when one my friends told me that the guy I loved was getting married in a few days... and my friend to conclude "Why did you leave him ? That should be your wedding !". A cold shower in winter, with the window open... I felt that, inside me...But since this day, each time we meet each other, maybe twice a year, even if I don't greet him nor look at him, I can still feel his gaze on me. My remedy, a mental mantra ... "no regrets, no regrets, no regrets..."...sometimes it works.