friday night.  

Lincoln56 Ask me for a photo 8/26/2006 12:02 am Last Read: 8/24/2007 10:09 pm	> Friday night, and I am home watching tv and drinking wine, is that sad? I like it, in my stave in life. forgive me it my be the wine tinting my emotions. I was thinking that my life is not the one I imagine when I was a little boy. I have had a enjoyable life, and interesting enough for me, and yet it has degraded to the point of living vicariously in tv, books, and liquor. It seems as if I live for titilation more then something more substantive. 37, is that middle age, I was not aware of it but I feel its pangs, the begenning of its course. Is this a stage, or am I just week or human. What is the meanning of the passion for life, for me for a korean, or american or Kor American? I do not have the ambition to justify existance or certian passion for anything, life , art, history or religion. I love my work well as most, I like my life, but dose that justify life. I dont know. Sorry for the crazy talk. I think I should go hikng in the mornning , get perspective. I hope all is well, i hear there are tornados, I am sure that it is not in Cin. What is your favorite tv show, mine is Charly Rose? I learn so much from it. I will let you go for now. Remember I have been drinking red wine. Thanks for letting me rant.
coucou 8/26/2006 3:30 pm	Hi, Lincoln. I got this poem from my friend when I had a doubt about part of my life. She found it and wrote.. " Appy, Life must go on. Hugs... Never stop..promise? " I don't know why but..I just share that poem with you.. Not great one but sometimes it helped me. Hope your Hiking was good. Cheers. DON'T QUIT! When things go wrong as they sometimes will When the road you're trudging seems all up hill When the funds are low and the debts are high And you want to smile, but you have to sigh When care is pressing you down a bit Rest, if you must, but don't you quit. Life is queer, with its twists and turns As everyone of us sometimes learns And many a failure turns about When he/she might have won had he/she stuck it out Don't give up though the pace seems slow You may succeed with another blow. Success is failure turned inside out The silver tint of the clouds of doubt And you never can tell how close you are It may be near when it seems so far So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
OrchidThorns Ask me for a photo 8/26/2006 7:59 pm	Here I am on Sat night, all by myself wondering what my little girl is doing on her birthday away from mommy. Since birth of my children, I've made sure every holiday and their birthdays are spent with me - no matter what. Why am I not with her on precious day such as today? I had to make a choice: her birthday wish vs. my desire. So here I am in front of this pc wondering what life is all about while she is enjoying her special day without me but with Aunt Tammy and her daddy. I raise kids to my best ability; teach them my moral values - good or bad. There is no complains about me being a mom, and heck I am proud that they are my life! Yet.. here I sit in front of pc alone, picturing their laughter instead of hearing them. Single, married.. kids, no kids.. Happiness is what we have to find in our everyday life no matter how much the grief. Hell, I’ll take her out tomorrow with her brother and show BETTER, the BESTEST time ever! Beat that TAMMY!