New Light on life Nothing, hardly to do with diet/ ex)  

Lincoln56 Ask me for a photo 10/1/2005 11:29 pm Last Read: 5/24/2006 1:53 am

i come to a realization that the life i lead is not the life i have. It was a long transition, however, the swithch has been fliped. I konw know what I feel, like when you are drunk with alchol, it is different but significant at the time, this, I do not see reverting. Relationships chnage, however, faite or promise it held. Is it me that was left behined? Is alll a few step front of the race? One step closer to the island, or am I an island wanting to be closer and be more like a continent? Simply I feel, left behind, almost used; old song do come true, life is not different. Deal with it, that's easy, the change, disapointment is the weight pressing every single way. Is this why people focuse on money, after disapointment about relationships. It so easy to do, focus, no distraction, no fellings, just direction without purpose. MOney, purpose, lol, I hate to get there: its like in quick sand and knowing where you are going and yet you have time: time for hope,time for miserry; dead man walking. sorry to my self and anyone elese for being so ----- bleak, there is an upside, but the benifit of money verses happyness, or even the comparison is ridiculus. They can compliment but they are not interchangeable. I think I should find a commumne, those are that turn out the worst. Let's hope for the best. Perhaps I will find my true or atleast my old self. love thy