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paestreet 7/21/2009 12:41 pm Last Read: 7/23/2009 1:29 pm	Hi, everyone! Yeap, long time not seen. Stirring life? For sure! Training in a new place of work. Thx, to my dad, that helped me in finding of new job. Two months more and will get started working. Every day the same routine: 5.45 a.m. rings the bell, at seven already doing the job. At 1 p.m. finishing part-time job, moving to a new job to study. At 7 in the evening tired, hungry get home))) But it`s okay, I can handle this. I should feel lucky myself, cause soon I`ll do a work, that is well paid...But... Life doesn`t seem to be so bright. All the problems are in LOVE. And unfortunately it`s a lamblike love. Sh*t, can`t believe, that it hasn`t let me go still. She doesn`t love already since the moment she told me that. And all the senses that have lived in me that day, are still living in my heart...in my soul... 9 months have already passed, but I can`t still stop thinking about her. Can`t get her out of my mind. Last two months we met with her periodically. It could be better, if I didn`t met with her. My fault. A week ago, I understood, that it`s better to me, if we won`t see each other. She agreed. Of course, because she had no feelings to me... Can`t forget her... Always thinking about her... Every new thought is at list somehow connected with her. And I can`t do nothing with myself. Such long time has passed since we broke up, but even TIME can`t treat those wounds... And I don`t wanna get a new girlfriend. I don`t visit clubs, I don`t wanna drink, don`t wanna see comedies, don`t even want to speak to anyone. F********ck!!! DON`T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! No treatment against it... People, LOVE be LOVED!!! Cause LOVE is the best thing in the world, that hasn`t been discovered by scientist, and has no formulary explanation, and brings you happiness and warmth!!!
YouthfulGlow 100 posts  7/22/2009 6:25 pm	Saddened to hear this, my friend, as I was always told that if one loves and the other doesn't then you have nothing: Let it go. "Thirsty again" - that's the hole in your heart. Strange that I am answering this one. I feel compelled to do so.... One of my own children, my daughter, had a medical procedure to repair what the doctor called "a hole in her heart." The doctor confirmed with my husband and I that everyone is born with a hole in their heart that closes shortly after birth. That got our attention as we have been rubbing elbows, shall I say informally, with some of the most highly experienced and respected heart surgeons here in California. Before we are born, there's a hole that is the passageway for blood to enter our prenatal heart from our mother, thus supplying oxygen to us while in the womb. In most people, thankfully, the hole heals up within a few days after birth. For a few others, like our daughter, it doesn't go away. And it really needs to be repaired within days or death is sure within two days to one month after birth. (check out Wikipedia on Foramen_ovale_(heart))... EVERYONE ...is born with a hole in their heart. But not just physically, but spiritually. Unlike the physical hole in your heart at birth, the spiritual one doesn't go away unless you let the greatest physician of all fill the hole. You can no more fill it with relationships, marital 'bliss', or any other extraneous substitute. ONLY THE GREAT PHYSICIAN WILL SUFFICE. There is a hole in your heart that tells you that you really need God and that He isn't there because of something that makes it impossible for God to live there -- all the distractions of your life that seem to be placed before your relationship with HIM. Until these are forgiven and removed, the God you were made for must remain outside of the hole in your heart until such time as you allow his healing. In John 4:13-17 , Jesus, the Great Physician, is at a well, talking with a woman who has tried to fill the hole in her heart with one relationship after another. Jesus says to her, and to all of us, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst ... the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." The woman said to him in return, "Sir, give me this water so that I won't get thirsty and have to keep coming here to draw water." He told her, "Go, call your husband and come back." "I have no husband," she replied. Jesus said to her, "You are right when you say you have no husband. The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true." Interesting, isn't it, how there seems to be a perpetual thirsiness when we place relationships before Jesus as something ..anything...to fill the hole in our hearts? After a while, we just assume that this hollowness inside, this hole in our heart is just how it is. This need not be so. The Bible describes King Solomon as the richest and wisest man of his time. And he had the resources to do it all. Here's his conclusion: "I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind." But just accepting that hole in your heart is ultimately deadly. It needs to be treated. It needs to be healed by the only One big enough to fill the hole in your heart; the God who made you to belong to Him. The brilliant physicist Blaise Pascal concluded that "inside every man is a God-shaped vacuum." {People, LOVE be LOVED!!!Cause LOVE is the best thing in the world, that hasn`t been discovered by scientist, and has no formulary explanation, and brings you happiness and warmth!!!) LOVE...shed abroad in the heart by the spirit of God is ...the best thing in the world. I myself have discovered this and find it to be true.
DarkWolf1974 23 posts  7/23/2009 6:46 am	It sounds like what you are doing is throwing yourself into work to forget - look on the positive side: at least you are doing something constructive to alleviate your malaise, as opposed to something destructive Love hurts when it fails, and the scars run deep no matter how much time passes to end the day-to-day feelings that haunt you now Do what you have to get by in the meantime and gradually wean yourself back on life's essence in your own time PEACE
paestreet 35 posts  7/23/2009 8:39 am	Thx to EVERYONE for the support. 2_YouthfulGlow: Belief in God is really good! In the childhood, when I came to the church I put candles, and always asked God of something good to happen... But when I got older, I understood, that I don`t have to ask from God for myself, and I just thanked Him. I thanked him for giving food and work for our family, for the health that is well. But now, I don`t even remember, whe I was last time in the Church and thanked God for giving my such life... 2_DarkWolf1974: Thanks, to saying smart things I could think about!